No woman ever felt attarcted to you, nor did one ever felt safe around you? You can't hold a job nor finish your education? You talk abou helping the cause, "saving the white race" but you aren't even capable of creating a family and your actions only create problems for the cause and push back the colective efforts? You are tough only in groups or with a weapon in your hand? You always resort to violence and blame everyone else for your pathetic life? If that's the case, congratulations, you're not a nationalist, you're not NS, you're not a "brave warrior", you're only a retard, cheap scum, and everyone (including the movement as a whole) would be better off without you.
To the people who still have a chance to change listen carefuly: leave all the edgy forums and chats you stay on, there's nothing that can help you nor the cause there; start going to the gym or practice a combat sport; read, read a lot and spend time in nature; do everything in your power to have a wife and children; and most importantly for the cause, since it can affect all of us, not just you, when you do an action, think about it very carefuly, if the outcome is truly possitive, if it's actually the proper way to go about things (what did the accelerationist groups ever achieve? was there any possitive impact, or did they only bring problems and unwanted attention before dissapearing? ask yourself this). It's never too late to change. But for that you have to admit your shortcomings, your problems and your defects.